The past week has been awful. I was paralyzed with fear about my life as an artist. I went into a dark hole and didn’t know if I would ever get out.
When I posted about getting rid of toxic people I really meant it. I was taking in their negativity like a sponge. I realized that my life and my art have to come first. Chasing after people because of loneliness is destructive.
I have to remember that I can’t waste time on people and things that distract me from my mission. I don’t have time to waste. I’m so grateful I was able to see what was happening and pull myself back from insanity. I need to use my talent and keep moving forward. I have gotten so many signs that I can do this and it is not unrealistic.
DOUBT CAN DESTROY AN ARTIST. DOUBT IS THE DINOSAUR IN MY MIND.
FAITH AND BELIEF MAKES ME CONFIDENT. ALSO HOPE.
So I was depressed when the curator of the Riverdale Gallery came and returned my paintings from this months show. And then she said a man is interested in one of my paintings. I was uplifted and pulled back from my reptilian brain. And it was priced at $1200. The curator said I overpriced my paintings and they would not sell. I don’t care that is what I do. I don’t undervalue my work today. And as I get better prices will go higher.
The painting is called “An Homage to Van Gogh”.