My mind took over last week. So I did every self help technique written on a million mental health website. I was sucked into finding the perfect way to cure this anxiety I had. Hours reading strategies for the monster in my head.
GUESS WHAT HAPPENED?
IT GOT WORSE!
I reached out to friends and temple members and shared my shameful mental breakdown. My community surrounded me with love. I was safe and protected by people. That was the answer.
All that insanity looking for an answer from books that kept saying this is the way to get out of the mental pain caused more anxiety.
POSITIVE AFFIRMATIONS COULDN’T HELP ME. PEOPLE DID. WE NEED TO DEVELOP A SUPPORT NETWORK FOR TIMES LIKE THIS. THE HUMAN TOUCH.
Trying to get positive and working hard to change my thinking only made me feel more like a loser. Today I am recovering from this dark mental episode and moving forward in baby steps. I did a lot of iPad painting during the episode. Now I want to do an oil painting. I think that will help soothe my mind.