My early self taught landscape paintings in oil and acrylic.
Yesterday I was told no one registered for my iPad painting workshop in January at the Riverdale Senior Center . The National Association of Women Artists are moving and cannot start my workshop till March. No word about my proposal for iPad art classes at the Blue Door Gallery.
It’s bleak. I’m afraid of never creating a successful business with a vision that will serve people. Yesterday I was thinking that maybe my vision won’t work and I should let it go. Look for a job I thought forget art you have failed and you need money to survive. My old belief returned “I can’t support myself in my art”. HELP
But my gut keeps saying don’t give up!! PERSERVERANCE IS KEY! I always give up. I run when the going gets tough.
I really have not pursued other organizations. My perception is my idea is no good. That is not the truth. I have gotten acceptance from the directors of the organizations. It’s being able to promote it to the people. Maybe seniors are not it. I see that they won’t try new things. They are really set in their ways. They are missing out on something that will be a wonderful experience. But I can’t reach stubborn minds. I must reach younger audiences. The answer is go somewhere else.
MY VISION IS VALUABLE. I DON’T WANT TO GIVE UP ON IT.
When I was a only child growing up in a house where the adults had mental illness, I locked myself in my room for hours drawing. I erased my childhood trauma with art. I went into the art zone. So I really became a survivor and perfected my skills in drawing. This lead to being accepted at the High School of Art & Design in 1966. 500 applicants and they only accepted 200. VICTORY!
But the truth is when I was in my sacred room avoiding adult insanity, I also fantasized on being famous. WHY?
I believe that being famous would make the world see me and love me. It would take me away from the truth of my dark reality. I was interviewed by Johnny Carson in my room! I was very special. My talents were many and I impressed Johnny by belting out songs. I really had a magic room.
Being famous became a hidden motive so I became extremely competitive in art. I was recognized as being talented and won a National Schoolastic award. But I lived in fear of not being famous. Compare and dispair became my name. There were others better than me and I started to give up. What I didn’t understand is that someone will always be better than me. But the better is in there expression.
JEALOUS ARTISTS! I was one. Jealousy made me leave my art and become a secretary. Being famous had become the demon Master. 30 year artist block followed.
What I finally learned when I came back to my art is it’s not important to be famous. My block actually gave me insight into the true value of being an artist. You are not really seeing as a artist if your objective is fame. Fame doesn’t inspire creativity. Fame inspires fear. My art has become so free and it is who I am. My art speaks to people it is authentic.
When I learned how to love who I am and trust my spiritual connection with my God. When I connected to people and stopped hiding from the world. WHEN I STOPPED CARING WHAT OTHERS THINK is when I became truly famous.
THIS IS A STORY ABOUT THE ARTIST YASOU KUNIYOSHI AND HOW I BECAME AN ART DETECTIVE.
“At the League my life began to take on a real meaning. . . . I had a great hunger for friends and companionship as a natural reaction to my lonely wanderings. At the League I found the warmth and kindness which I sorely needed.”— Yasou Kuniyoshi
When Yasuo Kuniyoshi began studying in New York City at the Art Students League in 1916 he tried and failed to get into George Bellows’ popular painting class. Instead, he studied with Kenneth Hayes Miller, who proved to be a valuable influence on Kuniyoshi’s artistic trajectory. Soon after assuming the role of teacher himself in 1933, also at the Art Students League, Kuniyoshi’s own classes became difficult to get into. He was immensely popular with his charges. In the classroom, he engaged students with questions about process and subject matter, not just technique, encouraging them to develop a curiosity about how to represent their unique experiences of the world. This method mirrored his own approach to painting.
I was giving private painting class to a wonderful woman who had visual impairment due to a double stroke. She abandoned herself to creativity and the painting expanded her life. We worked for 2 years in her home and her work was so special because of her impairment. It was a joy to watch
What does that have to do with Kuniyoshi?
When I used the bathroom in my client’s home, I kept looking at an interesting framed print there. It was an unusual drawing and I kept thinking this is something important. I looked at the signature one visit and could make it out as Kuniyoshi. I knew Kuniyoshi because he was a former Art Students League instructor in the 1940’s. I had studied his work on on the internet as I became educated in various artists who were not well known. Upon Discovering the signature, I found out my client bought it many years ago in a flea market for next to nothing. I told her what I knew about the artist and said she might have an original print that was valuable. I told her to take it out of the bathroom immediately to prevent any more water damage. Then we searched the Internet and YES it was his print from a series. Now we needed to find out if it was original. My client made an appointment with a Sotheby’s print specialist.
And according to Sotheby’s IT IS AN ORIGINAL!!! The value $8,000. She removed the old frame had it framed and it is over the couch. She had a treasure and it was hiding in the bathroom. I’m grateful that I could see the treasure due to my art knowledge.
Why Kuniyoshi is an artist I admire is because he taught his students to PUT YOURSELF IN THE ART.
WHAT’S IN YOUR BATHROOM?
Here is the print my client owns:
What are you doing to inspire others? When I’m in self absorbed fear I’m in trouble
My Mind is a bad neighborhood is yours? Well get the hell out of Dodge NOW!!!
I realize that when I’m looking to be inspired what I really need is to inspire someone else. So I spent yesterday being of service to my latest fearless artist Beth Gallager. Beth doesn’t worry about being perfect – she is so happy being in her art zone. Doing art has enhanced her life. Her eyes are focused on seeing the world. She is out of the cave and alive! By the way she jumped in and never said those pitiful words “I can’t do art I can’t draw a straight line”
Who have you inspired lately? An artist is responsible to encourage their communities to stop living in fear and start to enjoy their very special creative selves!
HAPPY HOLIDAYS HERE’S BETH’S CHARLIE BROWN CHRISTMAS TREE! DONE ON HER IPAD WITH ART SET PRO.