I wish there was a 12 Step program for my struggles with this issue. So I am going to adapt AA’s program to help me work through ADHD symptoms that do not serve me as an artist who is building a creative business. Please join me on a road less traveled – it starts with BELIEF!
DISCLAIMER: I AM NOT A PROFESSIONAL THERAPIST OR COUNSELOR. I ONLY SHARE MY EXPERIENCE STRENGTH AND HOPE ON DEALING WITH MY ADHD ISSUES. PLEASE CONSULT PROFESSIONAL HELP TO DETERMINE YOUR NEEDS.
I have been blogging for a very short time. It was done without really thinking about what my blog would be. I admit I was impulsive and said this may work (or not). So I wanted to let artists know how I recovered from a 30 year artist block that ended in the loss of a 13 year marriage and losing custody of my 5 year old son due to the destruction of my true self. That is a whole other post.
I AM READY FOR THE NEXT BLOGGER LEVEL. TRANSPARENCY. AUTHENTICITY AND CREATIVITY.
I never knew I had ADHD until I turned 50. I struggled my whole life to survive and fit in a world I didn’t understand. I ended up abusing alcohol and drugs to self medicate since I was 11 years old. In February 2001 I destroyed myself and everyone around me. I was sent to a treatment center in Pennsylvania for 30 days but I was so sick I ended up there for 7 months. On September 10, 2001 I left rehab with a suitcase and pillow and quilt to my new apartment in Queens. The next morning 9/11 happened. I realize now what a metaphor that was. The end of New York City as we knew it (safe and routine). As I watched the Towers crumble before my eyes in disbelief the impact of something so permanent crashing down and disappearing in a short time I now see as the crumbling of my life as knew it was also crashing.
I needed to rebuild me.
6 months later I was diagnosed with ADHD and learning disabilities. FINALLY EVERYTHING MADE SENSE! I learned I was not crazy, lazy or stupid.
So I want to let my blogging friends know who I am and how I dealt with my struggles to manage a life that was lost for so many years.
In 2009 I was laid off from a 19 year legal secretary position in a very large New York City law firm. I didn’t see the gift this would eventually become. I had to make a decision at the age of 57 to not hide out in a secretarial job. I had to face the question either I’m an artist or not. Am I willing to go to any lengths to finally be visible and show my art.
I’m committed to finally being free to stop giving up on myself and my talent. My previous posts show my journey. Now I am adding to that journey the up and down pathways of a artist of maturity in a world of economic uncertainty creating a prosperous business in the arts.
I’m spiritually guided to help artists who struggle with believing that they can’t be successful. Who have given up on their art. Who feel that they are too old or not good enough to live a creative life. This is not for artists who want to do art to make money and be famous. I’m an artist who does art because I must. I never paint to sell. I have come out of the cave and have built a big internet exposure slowly. I have done art shows where I was the oldest person there. Also the only woman artist. I don’t think about being old and not fitting in. In fact I am grateful to be able to have my work out there. When I first let my work be shown I SOLD MY ART! And I continue to sell.
My vision expanded to be an inspirational artist speaker and coach to help those who have ADHD or artist blocks.
THIS BLOG IS ABOUT BEING A FEARLESS ARTIST. BEING A SUCCESSFUL ARTIST DEALING WITH ADHD SYMPTOMS. I NOW WORK WITHOUT EGO. I WANT TO LET PEOPLE KNOW THAT IT IS NEVER TOO LATE TO HAVE SUCCESS. I DEFINE SUCCESS IN ALL AREAS OF MY LIFE.
IT STARTS WITH BELIEF!
As an artist in today’s art world I make sure I get out and learn what other artists are doing to be successful with their art. I posted the lecture I attended at the National Arts Club on how artists are using Instagram to promote their work.
I took a seat in the front row as I always do and that put me within a foot of the handsome face of Sam Horine, one of the guest speakers Sam radiated a sense of true authenticity and confidence without ego I’m good at picking up “artistic ego driven” vibes A couple of them sat next to me. You know the kind. They think they’re the most talented artists around. They are usually seniors belonging to prestigious art clubs and have been going to art school forever. They desperately want to be famous and sell their art. Behind me sat a prominent (that’s how he was introduced) sculptor who has been known in the art world. I tried to engage in a conversation but was dismissed. They always look down their noses when they dismiss you right!
STOP…back to the real topic of this post…Sam. Why I want to put him on my blog is that he is an example of an artist who creates because it is his soul. And he is an artist who is open to all people. He is adjunct professor at NYU teaching photography. He is a successful freelance photographer working with major companies. Best of all he is SAM and his work is expressive of the integrity I felt being across the table from him.
The artist savage next to me questioned him with “are you selling on Instagram ?” He graciously replied that he doesn’t use Instagram as a tool to sell. He said it was more important to use it to show his work to a large audience. That being said the senior artist savage grumbled and I know she won’t be using Instagram.
Here’s to Sam Horine. An artist in the true sense of the word.
His website: http://www.samhorine.com knock out photography
I attended a talk about artists using Instagram to promote their work. The National Art Club is an old traditional art organization. I got married there in the 1980’s! I have not kept up with the art they show in many years so I still think they are traditional.
However, as I searched the Internet I found that they have been evolving. I must tell on myself. I’ve never been part of their art scene because I think I’m not good enough for them. But I won’t let that thinking stop me from seeing what’s going on.
So here’s what’s going on.
A panel of 3 artists using Instagram.
TANIA DEBONO Typography Artist and her website is called TheWriting.
SAM HORINE Photographer and Educator NYC
WHAT I LEARNED … it’s another venue for showing your artwork. A bigger venue right now.
ANOTHER THING I LEARNED … never sit next to artist savages. Especially the elderly artists who are desperate to sell their work. You feel the self seeking oozing from their pores.
And Tania DeBono nipped that in the bud. She said trying to sell on social media is not going to work. People are turned off by selling artists.
I found that I am promoting my voice and story as an artist. Be authentic and the money comes.
This is very difficult to write about. A fellow artist in the NYC Subway platform surrounded by his artwork. I didn’t notice the whole picture and just quickly dismissed him as a general homeless man. Then I really looked and felt my gut clench because I was staring at the true “starving artist “. I had a moment of fear and didn’t want to see this. It was painful. It could be me!! And let me tell you some months cash flow is not plentiful.
But I was drawn to his art. He was good and had talent. I fearlessly approached him and hoped I could tell him how good his art is. You never know if people are insane or if the art was stolen. What followed was the most engaging conversation with a talented fellow artist on hard times. At one time he was successful in Florida. He had traveled all over the world doing art. Studied at the National Academy of Art. This was a man on hard times showing his work no matter what. He wasn’t complaining about his situation. He wasn’t asking for MONEY. He was a very happy man sketching in the subway engaged in creating.
I am blessed to have met this fellow artist. The train came and we shook hands good bye. I felt D. E. Gayard was a true fearless artist. He blessed me that day. The only gift I can give this artist is to celebrate him on my blog and tell my followers and the internet world of his existence in the world of art.
Please pass this post to everyone you know. Spread the name and art of D. E. Gayard. Don’t let this special artist fall through the cracks of anonymity.
I had to do a separate post on D. THOMAS FINE MINIATURES. An incredible store of doll houses and miniatures. Yes these places do exist. They are in hidden alleys and appear to those who believe in art of doll houses.
My son Dan came upon D. THOMAS Fine Miniatures hidden in a mews of stores. When we walked in it was like being transported to another world. Darren T. Scala is the Artist/Proprietor. He was a delightful person who showed us around. He actually was looking for an artist who could teach a workshop on painting miniatures. He asked if I could do that and when he explained that it would mean sizing down masterpiece art into a 1″ or 2″ scaled version I had to decline. I’m good at small paintings but not traditional masterpieces. If anyone out there can do this give Darren a call.
So my curiousity about this art had me search for what a true miniature is. What is the history of the art. And how a store like this can exist selling such a specialty item. Let’s face it, I never knew that miniature collectors and the artists that create these miniatures were around.
So what is a miniature? According to Wikipedia, a miniature is a small-scale reproduction, or a small version. It includes paintings as well. These paintings are very small and extremely detailed.
And of course there are the beautiful doll houses and the furniture created for them.
Here are some things from D. THOMAS Fine Miniatures.
BUT WAIT. IN THE BACK OF THE STORE WAS AN ARTIST RENDITION OF THE BACK BUILDINGS FROM THE ALFRED HITCHCOCK MOVIE “REAR WINDOW “!! WAIT A MINUTE I THINK I SEE GRACE KELLY IN ONE OF THOSE WINDOWS!
D. THOMAS Fine Miniatures is located at 579 Warburton Avenue Shop #6, Hastings on Hudson, NY 10706
Here’s a great link with more incredible artists creating miniature scenes. The site is Mental Floss.
My son Dan and I decided to explore the Hudson Valley last week. So many interesting towns and history are part of this area. We settled on Hastings on the Hudson.
A 15 minute trip on Metro North and we were there.
We climbed a hill leading to the town and it didn’t seem like much of a town. But we kept on walking and eventually the Main Street appeared.
They say a good artist begins with learning drawing skills. I mastered my drawing skills beginning with drawing on the furniture at 3. Most of my artwork was drawing people when I began. I wanted to be a fashion illustrator when I was in high school.
THE CAVE … warm and dark … no people to drive you crazy … no expectations to meet!
I used to love the cave. But the cave was a hide out from life. Today I redecorated my cave. I call it the castle of creativity. It’s not dark. Large trees outside my window are active with squirrels running up and down for entertainment. My easel next to the window with canvas ready to paint. Solitude is not hiding anymore. Solitude is art.