I wish there was a 12 Step program for my struggles with this issue. So I am going to adapt AA’s program to help me work through ADHD symptoms that do not serve me as an artist who is building a creative business. Please join me on a road less traveled – it starts with BELIEF!
DISCLAIMER: I AM NOT A PROFESSIONAL THERAPIST OR COUNSELOR. I ONLY SHARE MY EXPERIENCE STRENGTH AND HOPE ON DEALING WITH MY ADHD ISSUES. PLEASE CONSULT PROFESSIONAL HELP TO DETERMINE YOUR NEEDS.
I have been blogging for a very short time. It was done without really thinking about what my blog would be. I admit I was impulsive and said this may work (or not). So I wanted to let artists know how I recovered from a 30 year artist block that ended in the loss of a 13 year marriage and losing custody of my 5 year old son due to the destruction of my true self. That is a whole other post.
I AM READY FOR THE NEXT BLOGGER LEVEL. TRANSPARENCY. AUTHENTICITY AND CREATIVITY.
I never knew I had ADHD until I turned 50. I struggled my whole life to survive and fit in a world I didn’t understand. I ended up abusing alcohol and drugs to self medicate since I was 11 years old. In February 2001 I destroyed myself and everyone around me. I was sent to a treatment center in Pennsylvania for 30 days but I was so sick I ended up there for 7 months. On September 10, 2001 I left rehab with a suitcase and pillow and quilt to my new apartment in Queens. The next morning 9/11 happened. I realize now what a metaphor that was. The end of New York City as we knew it (safe and routine). As I watched the Towers crumble before my eyes in disbelief the impact of something so permanent crashing down and disappearing in a short time I now see as the crumbling of my life as knew it was also crashing.
I needed to rebuild me.
6 months later I was diagnosed with ADHD and learning disabilities. FINALLY EVERYTHING MADE SENSE! I learned I was not crazy, lazy or stupid.
So I want to let my blogging friends know who I am and how I dealt with my struggles to manage a life that was lost for so many years.
In 2009 I was laid off from a 19 year legal secretary position in a very large New York City law firm. I didn’t see the gift this would eventually become. I had to make a decision at the age of 57 to not hide out in a secretarial job. I had to face the question either I’m an artist or not. Am I willing to go to any lengths to finally be visible and show my art.
I’m committed to finally being free to stop giving up on myself and my talent. My previous posts show my journey. Now I am adding to that journey the up and down pathways of a artist of maturity in a world of economic uncertainty creating a prosperous business in the arts.
I’m spiritually guided to help artists who struggle with believing that they can’t be successful. Who have given up on their art. Who feel that they are too old or not good enough to live a creative life. This is not for artists who want to do art to make money and be famous. I’m an artist who does art because I must. I never paint to sell. I have come out of the cave and have built a big internet exposure slowly. I have done art shows where I was the oldest person there. Also the only woman artist. I don’t think about being old and not fitting in. In fact I am grateful to be able to have my work out there. When I first let my work be shown I SOLD MY ART! And I continue to sell.
My vision expanded to be an inspirational artist speaker and coach to help those who have ADHD or artist blocks.
THIS BLOG IS ABOUT BEING A FEARLESS ARTIST. BEING A SUCCESSFUL ARTIST DEALING WITH ADHD SYMPTOMS. I NOW WORK WITHOUT EGO. I WANT TO LET PEOPLE KNOW THAT IT IS NEVER TOO LATE TO HAVE SUCCESS. I DEFINE SUCCESS IN ALL AREAS OF MY LIFE.
IT STARTS WITH BELIEF!