I’VE SIGNED MY FIRST CONTRACT AS A PROFESSIONAL ARTIST!

I have spent two years traveling the “road less traveled “.  There’s a reason why the road is less traveled. I went from an unemployed homeless artist to a life beyond my wildest dreams.  HOW??   


I had a belief that God would carry me to where I would be of service.  Where my talents would be acknowledged. My purpose was to be whatever change I could be in this crazy world.  And I landed in RIVERDALE. THE BRONX!


I wandered the Hudson Valley and created my business “FEARLESS CREATIVITY Art for Arts Sake”.  

I have made a name for myself as an artist.  I’m 65 years old and feel that I can conquer the world. 

I developed a painting class at the Riverdale Senior Center in February.  Last month it was going to be canceled for lack of attendance.  But suddenly the center loves my inspirational teaching and the work from students. 

And Friday I was given a one year contract to continue my mission of everyone can be an artist. 

 




I WAS LOST AND MORE WAS REVEALED 

A lot has been revealed in the past weeks.  I faced a lot about myself and how my purpose was morphing again.  I’m not making things happen.  There was the ADHD gear box.  I was in neutral. Thinking of so many great things but not being able to engage and complete the ideas.  The result was what I created an artist block.  I stopped my art and got lost in the distractions to avoid my vision.

AVOIDANCE!!!   A corrupting thread in my life based on fear.   

I’m facing the fact that creating an art business is work.  I can’t wait for the perfect action to take and have the expectation that it will be the answer.  I need to keep being a doer.  Every day.   

One thing I started to do was paint again.  An artist has to keep honing their skills.  Also I am embarking on going back and renewing my drawing skills.   I’m playing with creating a character of myself in drawing.  Art has to come first and then I will be able to create my art business.

ART FIRST!!!!

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ANNOUNCING:  MY BLOG DO-OVER

The last few weeks have challenged who I am and where am I going as an artist and blogger. It was not pretty but definitely enlightening to say the least!

Crashing and burning is a sign for me something needs to change.  That thing is usually ME.  

I was trying to learn how to be a successful blogger and business owner.  After listening and researching hundreds of podcasts and listening to an overload of coaches who had different versions of the basic idea (you need them to get it) I found myself concluding that I am a definite loser at the game. 

This morning was the culmination of my life as an artist blogger business owner. . . “I’m a recovering starving artist!!

   
 I froze and lost all belief in my vision and gave up on everything that I have done successfully.  

So Fearless Artist Blog is really about getting my courage back.  Acknowledge my imperfections of learning disabilities and ADHD but not let them take me down.  

I will keep challenging and celebrating ME.   Face the world and speak my truth.  Define my success of perserverance and let my voice about art is for everyone ring out.  

  
   

THE NATIONAL ART CLUB BREAKING TRADITION-A TALK ON ARTISTS USING INSTAGRAM 

  
 I attended a talk about artists using Instagram to promote their work.   The National Art Club is an old traditional art organization.  I got married there in the 1980’s!  I have not kept up with the art they show in many years so I still think they are traditional. 

However, as I searched the Internet I found that they have been evolving.  I must tell on myself.  I’ve never been part of their art scene because I think I’m not good enough for them.  But I won’t let that thinking stop me from seeing what’s going on. 

So here’s what’s going on. 

A panel of 3 artists using Instagram.   

TANIA DEBONO Typography Artist and her website is called TheWriting. 


 
KENNETH SCHLENKER  Art Dealer and creator of an upscale art selling website called ArtList. 

  

SAM HORINE Photographer and Educator NYC

  

WHAT I LEARNED … it’s another venue for showing your artwork.  A bigger venue right now. 

ANOTHER THING I LEARNED … never sit next to artist savages.  Especially the elderly artists who are desperate to sell their work.  You feel the self seeking oozing from their pores.  

And Tania DeBono nipped that in the bud. She said trying to sell on social media is not going to work.  People are turned off by selling artists.  

I found that I am promoting my voice and story as an artist.  Be authentic and the money comes. 

HOMAGE TO VAN GOGH

My love affair with the work of Van Gogh began in high school.  A lot of people comment that my work is like Van Gogh. Or is Van Gogh’s work like mine??  Here’s to the inner Van Gogh in my work over the years. 

   
    
    
    
    
    
    
   

SOME DAYS IT’S HARDER TO GET OUT OF THE CAVE 

THE CAVE … warm and dark … no people to drive you crazy … no expectations to meet!

  
I used to love the cave.  But the cave was a hide out from life.  Today I redecorated my cave.  I call it the castle of creativity. It’s not dark.  Large trees outside my window are active with squirrels running up and down for entertainment. My easel next to the window with canvas ready to paint.  Solitude is not hiding anymore. Solitude is art. 

  

“REAL ART”

A friend wanted to know what art museums were good to go to in the city. She wanted to take a a out of town friend who loves art to a museum but she had no idea what art is about or where to take her. Of course she rattled off MOMA, the MET, and the Whitney.  Some big names. I thought it would be interesting to have them over for tea and a chat on art and her friend could see my process as a professional artist.  

SILENCE … followed by “She wants to see “real art”. 

It’s a good thing I have a tough skin in these situations. However, this is not an isolated feeling from one person.  The majority of people think living artists who are not making a fortune in the art market are not “real artists “.   This is a very sad state of affairs today.  And my friend actually purchased postcards of my art to use to write to people because she loved the painting.  

ART DOESN’T HAVE TO BE IN A MUSEUM OR BE HANGING ON THE WALLS OF WEALTHY INVESTMENT BANKERS.  ARTISTS DON’T HAVE TO BE STRANGE AND MYSTERIOUS LIKE BANKSY.  BUT PEOPLE WANT TO SEE FAMOUS ART BECAUSE THEY NEED TO BE TOLD WHAT GOOD ART IS. 

It’s not about taste or getting a feeling of the artwork, it’s the need to be told what is good art.  If it’s in a museum it must be good.  I have seen a lot of awful art in museums.  I personally don’t like MOMA.  I’m not into installation art.   I never understand what the artist vision is in those long art speak descriptions they post.  WHAT ARE THEY SAYING??  SPEAK TO ME IN WORDS THAT DON’T REQUIRE ME TO BRING A DICTIONARY TO THE MUSEUM!!

ARGHH!!!!

   

    
    
 

PERSERVERANCE 

Yesterday I was told no one registered for my iPad painting workshop in January at the Riverdale Senior Center .  The National Association of Women Artists are moving and cannot start my workshop till March.  No word about my proposal for iPad art classes at the Blue Door Gallery. 

It’s bleak.  I’m afraid of never creating a successful business with a vision that will serve people.  Yesterday I was thinking that maybe my vision won’t work and I should let it go. Look for a job I thought forget art you have failed and you need money to survive.  My old belief returned “I can’t support myself in my art”.  HELP

But my gut keeps saying don’t give up!!  PERSERVERANCE IS KEY!  I always give up. I run when the going gets tough. 

I really have not pursued other organizations. My perception is my idea is no good. That is not the truth. I have gotten acceptance from the directors of the organizations. It’s being able to promote it to the people. Maybe seniors are not it. I see that they won’t try new things. They are really set in their ways. They are missing out on something that will be a wonderful experience. But I can’t reach stubborn minds. I must reach younger audiences.  The answer is go somewhere else. 

MY VISION IS VALUABLE.  I DON’T WANT TO GIVE UP ON IT.  

PERSERVERANCE.