MIND OF AN ARTIST: STUDY A BLADE OF GRASS

My mind is a monkey mind.

I know it's my ADHD. There is a quality of my life that resembles a circus. I'm always trying to train those monkeys to perform the right way. Okay you guys get yourselves in order.

I actually become the lion tamer trying to force my creativity to perform. Not only to perform but to kick ass perform.

Here's where pressure to be a creative genius sets in. In other words here comes the artist block! I HAVE TO DO THE BEST PAINTING OR DO NOTHING! So I do nothing.

The monkeys are doing nothing so out of boredom they start to act out. Avoidance creates havoc and chaos. I end up hating myself for being unproductive. It's a great big circus ring ready to explode.

My thinking is creativity needs to be a high experience with lots of bells and whistles going off. There's no sanity. There's no peace. Every work of art has to be created from a psychedelic experience. Don't forget I come from the original hippie lifestyle. The Magical Mystery tour. But it's becoming clear that flying by the seat of exploding pants is not working.

So that is why I am choosing to study a blade of grass. Slow down get off the merry go round. Be a quiet painter. I cannot be a superhuman artist. Study a blade of grass.

Here are plein air paintings done with the mindset of "study a blade of grass ".

WHAT WILL MAKE ME STEP OUTSIDE MY COMFORT ZONE?

  

THE COMFORT ZONE- I am very happy there. Why do I need to leave it?  
I have created a vision and I believe in it totally. I have a lot of interest in my iPad painting workshop. But I am stuck on approaching new clients.  I am fighting my past behavior of creating excitement in my project and then disappearing because I need to deal with making it happen. 

I’M COMMITTED TO BEING FEARLESS NOW.  THE COMFORT ZONE IS NOT SERVING ME ANYMORE. 

As an artist being visible is important.  My mission is to engage people to be creative.  That art can change the way a person lives in the world.  Art is not just for the talented. Its for everyone. I have been working with a mature woman who has been very depressed. She is retired and has spent her retirement hanging out with negative friends complaining about her life. They use compulsive shopping to have fun. Yesterday she told me she is buying an iPad because she wants to be creative.   She hasn’t been creative since she was a child.  She was attracted to my joy of living through art. This is a powerful action she’s taking.  She is letting go of her toxic relationships and taking a journey outside her COMFORT ZONE!

I know my purpose in life is to make people have bigger lives.  Everyone is in fear. People want to complain as form of communication. The news will make them sick. Negativity is rampant today. Negativity has become the comfort zone. This can change if creativity becomes important instead of frivolous.  When I get people to try art I see a change of the way they open up to the world. 

BE FEARLESS!  TODAY I WILL BE FEARLESS AND REACH OUT TO MORE PEOPLE. I BELIEVE IN MY MISSION.