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My mind is a monkey mind.
I know it's my ADHD. There is a quality of my life that resembles a circus. I'm always trying to train those monkeys to perform the right way. Okay you guys get yourselves in order.
The monkeys are doing nothing so out of boredom they start to act out. Avoidance creates havoc and chaos. I end up hating myself for being unproductive. It's a great big circus ring ready to explode.
I’M BACK – THE FEAR OF WRITING A POST
Well it is very hard to come back and post after my last post. Being transparent with my ADHD in my last post brought up a lot of emotion. That is the nature of the beast. Doubt and shame. Also every day I didn’t post made it harder to post. I kept listing “post on blog” every day and avoided it.
My whole life I ran from the world. I had many good ideas and people behind me. I couldn’t bring them to fruition and disappeared. I left many things that could have been profitable behind me. I NEVER BELIEVED IN MYSELF.
Today I am facing my demons of running away. I will keep trudging the creative path that is divinely given to me.
I’m back on my post and I will keep doing this post. I’m not perfect and perfectionism is will kill me.
GETTING BACK ON THE HORSE!!! I’M A SUCCESSFUL ADHD ARTIST TODAY!
PERSERVERANCE
Yesterday I was told no one registered for my iPad painting workshop in January at the Riverdale Senior Center . The National Association of Women Artists are moving and cannot start my workshop till March. No word about my proposal for iPad art classes at the Blue Door Gallery.
It’s bleak. I’m afraid of never creating a successful business with a vision that will serve people. Yesterday I was thinking that maybe my vision won’t work and I should let it go. Look for a job I thought forget art you have failed and you need money to survive. My old belief returned “I can’t support myself in my art”. HELP
But my gut keeps saying don’t give up!! PERSERVERANCE IS KEY! I always give up. I run when the going gets tough.
I really have not pursued other organizations. My perception is my idea is no good. That is not the truth. I have gotten acceptance from the directors of the organizations. It’s being able to promote it to the people. Maybe seniors are not it. I see that they won’t try new things. They are really set in their ways. They are missing out on something that will be a wonderful experience. But I can’t reach stubborn minds. I must reach younger audiences. The answer is go somewhere else.
MY VISION IS VALUABLE. I DON’T WANT TO GIVE UP ON IT.
PERSERVERANCE.